I got to do my first commentary today. Wooooo! ::does a little dance:: I was at a con all weekend, so I was feeling really tired and overwhelmed this morning. I actually forgot what time the commentary was supposed to be, and I would have missed it entirely if Micah hadn't come over to wake me up and remind me. (All the boyfriend points go to Micah Solusod!) It was a pretty big commentary. I mean, there were a lot of people in the booth, which is cool, because everyone else was amazing and we told jokes and laughed a lot. I was the total newbie among people who know what they're doing. D: I brought a mocha roll cake for everyone to eat, because I like bringing cake places.

Um...and that was the story of today. Auditions tomorrow. It occurs to me I should be sleeping. @^@

Hayfever is really laying me out, work-wise. I've been doing the normal stuff (various natural treatments, cutting down on sugar and carbs), and it hasn't been helping. I gave in and tried taking allergy medication the other day. It worked, but I wound up being too sleepy to get any meaningful work done. orz It's making recording kind of a pain, too, since my nose is pretty stuffed up. I have a session on Friday that I'm a little nervous about. Hopefully things clear up before then. Thankfully, I owe people fewer things right now (although I still owe a lot of things), so I can focus more on Yousei in the few hours of clarity I get each day.

Also, the cast for Shangri La was announced recently. Fewer people paid attention to it, since it's not Fairy Tail, but I'm super proud of it because I'm very fond of Mikuni. Plus, getting one of the main characters is a first for me. I'm still really nervous, but I think that's par for the course by now, so I'm trying to take it all in stride. I bugged Micah until he drew Mikuni for me, so now I'm going to use it everywhere because I love her.

( To-do List. Not important. )

As usual, I let things get away from me. I'm better than I was before, but it's still a struggle balancing all of this stuff. Probably moreso, given recent increases in voicework. I drew up a calendar today of all the work I need to finish for Yousei. If I write about 2,000 a day until my personal deadline, I should be fine. That's not so bad. The only caveat is they really have to be 2,000 GOOD words. That might be a problem...

Today was my last day with my first major character. Whoa. I'm still as nervous as a block of organic tofu at a vegan convention, but it's out of my hands now. I just hope that someone likes it. D: You know you've been online too long when your first concern is what people on message boards will say. Man, is this all I ever write about? It's either bad reviews of my writing or bad reviews of my voice acting. I mope a bit, then I say I know it shouldn't matter, then I resolve to be better, and then I toddle off. These things write themselves, man. Maybe I should just copy and paste this for every future entry:

"Dear Diary. Today I did a thing that I very much enjoy, but I worry deeply that citizens of the internet will not find equal enjoyment in my work. I shall make note of this fact in an effort to gain enough motivation to continue doing the thing I enjoy. I shall also strive to perform this task at a higher skill level the next time I do it. Love, me."

Yeah, that looks about right. Man, I'm so predictable.

Starting on a new show tomorrow. It's the show I mentioned earlier. Micah and I are both in it, thank God. Neither as the character we both auditioned for, though. XD There's a great joke about the character I play, but obviously I can't actually share said joke for fear of tipping my hand. (It's not that funny anyway - I just have a bizarre sense of humor.) It's nice to have a character with a really different voice from the once I just recorded for, though. Should keep things interesting.

I feel like a box of slow wrapped up in slow paper. I have no idea what that even means. Counting down the days until my personal deadline for Yousei, I'm finding myself with less and less time and more and more work. So now I'm whining about it online instead of actually doing work. Figures. I read that people procrastinate on stuff because they don't feel confident in their ability to complete it. That's...not an inaccurate summation. I just read back over what I write sometimes, and it just doesn't feel good enough. I also know it's dangerous and unhealthy to compare myself to others, but it's so hard not to when everyone else is posting word counts, and they're speeding past my own. I read all these sites by creators talking about how great this game is going to be, how innovative it is, and overall how it's going to be the next best thing in all of ever. Then I feel intimidated because I'll never have that level of confidence, no matter what I do. O_<

In other news, had an audition today. Another show that I really like, and it's also got a huge cast, so here's hoping. Micah and I auditioned for the same character. o.o

It's been a while since I used the command line to build anything. (And at this point, CS people sneer at me and non-CS people think I'm a nerd). Got Ren'py to work with my happy shiny new Android phone. It'll take a lot of work to port everything, but this might be fun~

My day just got a lot better.

( Friday's list of things to be doing. )

Whoa. Friday took more out of me than I thought it would. I passed out for most of Saturday. D: Happily, I'm starting another casting project, and that's looking like fun. Doing fighting games are my favorite. : D Also got semi-announced as a guest for Matsuricon. I think I'll be announced as a guest artist (for sakevisual), since I haven't really done a significant amount of voice work. The sad part being that I haven't really done any artwork, either, but listing me as a guest "writer" probably won't get the crowds very excited. : ( Matsuri is in August. Maybe by then I can talk about my thing (but probably not), as they haven't actually announced the license for this one yet. >.>

( Just a list. Nothing to see here. )

I still remember a conversation I had some years ago with a young girl who wanted to be a professional manga artist and voice actor. She said she hoped to be so busy that she'd have to draw manga while in the booth recording. At the time, I thought it didn't sound particularly fun, but now I'm kind of horrified by the idea. I mean, I know she was speaking in hyperbole, but still. I stayed up until 7:00am working on this page. A few hours into my day sleep, I got a call from FUNi asking if I could come in in two hours. ::rolls out of bed:: Sure. No problem. I'll be there. Actually, it's a good thing because the session I'm going in for was originally going to be right in the middle of All-Con, which means I'd have to abandon the table for a couple hours. I did the same thing last year during All-Con, and I feel super guilty about leaving everyone there to watch over my stuff.

In other news, the to-do list worked out surprisingly well yesterday. I didn't fix the bug in the NaNo game, but I mostly got the other stuff done along with coloring the new page and some other important business-y things. So, I guess doing it again couldn't hurt. You guys get to see all the menial stuff I do every day. Woooo!


( I'm always making lists. )